In Fear There is Temptation
I think a lot about who I used to be and the mistakes that I have made. It’s as if I am afraid to move forward out of fear of being pulled back. Temptation is everywhere… waiting. It waits for you to make a misstep and fall into the deep, dark, cycles of comfort. There is no comfort in growth. When the hand of temptation peeks out to grab you, remember all that you’ve worked for. You could never go back and be the same person you once were because during that time, you’ve accumulated so much life experience.
Fear. Fear seems to be the recurring theme in a lot of my work. Some artists create from pain: pain from loss, pain from experiences, pain from suffering. Others create from experiences that left a huge mark in their lives. I create from emotions and feelings and at the moment, fear is my muse. It allows me to create from a place deep within to share with the world. I know I am not alone. I also know that someone out there needs to hear they are not alone. Embarking on following your heart for something that isn’t quite tangible yet is terrifying. But I have faith that I am on the right path and that this is meant to be. The path of self-employment through my creative talents is not new to me. I didn’t succeed the first time so naturally I am scared to try again. What mostly makes me nervous is old habits of laziness, poor eating, poor planning, under valuing my work, feeling exasperated at home and not having enough money. I am working through these things by writing what I think my demons are and how I plan to tackle them when they appear. I am working on developing new habits to help me succeed. Additionally, I have my work to thank for all that I have learned in the last 3 years – they’ve encouraged me to grow, learn and live the life that I want to live. Because of all of these things, I feel a transformation happening and I am trying again.
What do you fear most about following your heart?
Who do you know that could hear the words “You are not alone in your fears”?
I wanted to share a couple of behind the scenes photos. I posed for this piece in my garage. My neighbors pretty much think I am crazy (which is alright with me). What I truly wanted to show is that you can make art out of anything and anywhere. The grass and brick photos that I used for the backdrop came from my recent trip to Copenhagen. The butterflies and smoke were also photographed in the garage. It’s fun to get creative right?
Mary - Love the behind the scenes, we’re all a little mad here right? Your work speaks volumes of the depths of your creativity.
Your fears sound so similar to mine and it’s so hard to put words or even an image to them and you’ve done such an amazing job.
I hope
Six months from bows, your fears are behind you and hope has replaced them. ♥️
Anna - Hi Mary! Agreed! Thank you so much for your words. For me, I use my fears to create – I have to, otherwise they fester within me. I also believe they are meant to translate into something that can help others see they are not alone. I hope so too 🙂 Thank you for commenting!
Jennifer K - Holy moly this is incredible, Anna. Concept, shoot, execution. And that video is completely hypnotic (I love showing that you can do this work anywhere, too). AMAZING photograph, and thank you for sharing!!
Anna - Aww thank you so much Jennifer! I appreciate your words and you stopping by! <3
Ashley - Wow! What a cool composition. You have an amazing gift with words and art.
Anna - Aww thank you Ashley! I really appreciate it 🙂 I appreciate you stopping by and commenting!
Jolie Rodriguez - Your artistry is so inspiring. I loved following your work process as well as your learning and spiritual process. SO CREATIVE!
Anna - Aww thank you so much Jolie! I really appreciate your words and comment 🙂 Thank you for stopping by!
Kara - Wow! This is so fun to see how you do this! I am amazed.
Anna - Thank you so much Kara! I really appreciate it. Thank you for stopping by and commenting! 🙂
Kaleigj - Wow! This is incredible! I love seeing the process and hearing your inspiration- heavy but incredibly beautiful ❤️
Anna - Thank you so much Kaleigh! I really appreciate it. Thank you for stopping by and commenting! 🙂
Kathryn Kim - I always love seeing your process! I would say I am probably held back by fear of the unknown. Gotta look it in the face and just go for it!
Anna - Thank you so much Kathryn! <3 I completely understand your fear, I feel that too. Sometimes it's just about closing your eyes (or keeping them open!) and taking the leap of faith. Thank you for stopping by and commenting! :)